Sep. 19, 2014

MOMMY DEAREST

WHEN I AM DOING WRONG MY MOTHER IS THE ONE PERSON THAT I KNOW I CAN DEPEND ON. MY MOTHER WILL LIE, STEAL, AND, CHEAT FOR ME. IN HER EYES, I CAN DO NO WRONG. HOWEVER, WHAT MY MOTHER DOESN'T KNOW IS THAT SHE IS RAISING ME TO BE WEAK RATHER THAN STRONG. IT ALL STARTED WHEN I STARTED DATING. I HAD TWO GIRLFRIENDS, NATASHA WAS BLACK AND TIFFANY WAS ASIAN. WHEN I WAS WITH TIFFANY MY MOTHER WOULD TELL NATASHA THAT I WAS RUNNING ERRANDS AND WHEN I WAS WITH NATASHA MY MOTHER TOLD TIFFANY THAT I WAS AT MY COUSIN'S HOUSE. MY MOTHER ALWAYS HAD MY BACK AND ALWAYS MONITORED THE WORDS THAT CAME OUT OF HER MOUTH. THIS IS WHAT LOYALITY IS ALL ABOUT! LATER IN LIFE, I WOULD QUESTION HER VIEWS BECAUSE I REALIZED SHE WASN'T RAISING ME TO BE ONE OF THE GOOD MEN THAT SHE OFTEN SPOKE ABOUT. WHEN I WAS ARRESTED AND CONVICTED SHE TOLD THE JUDGE THAT I WAS A GOOD MAN BEFORE YELLING, "YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT. SHE USED NEARLY EVERYTHING SHE HAD TO BAIL ME OUT. TWO DAYS LATER, I WAS BACK ON THE STREET. TWO WEEKS LATER, SOME GIRL CALLED THE COPS ON ME FOR KNOCKING OUT THREE OF HER FRONT TEETH. MY MOTHER WENT TO HER HOUSE THE NEXT MORNING AND THREATEND TO KILL HER IF SHE EVER SEEN HER AROUND ME. SOME PEOPLE CALL ME A MOMMA'S BOY; YES, IT IS TRUE.  ONCE AGIAN SHE BAILED ME OUT AND CURSED AT THE ARRESTING OFFICER BEFORE SHOUTING, "HE DID WHAT HE HAD TO DO".  IN HER EYES, I COULD NEVER DO ANY WRONG. IN MY EYES, I HAVE BEEN DOING WRONG FOR WAY TOO LONG.